I played my best for him...

Have you heard the song about The Little Dummer Boy? I'm sure you have. It is a popular Christmas song that I have heard since I grew up. Last year as I was driving around listening to it, I actually listened to the words and God spoke to me. I heard a line in the song and I just broke down. Bawling. To the Little Dummer Boy. Jesus take the wheel.. who does this?! That feeling of the Holy Spirit though is such a powerful reminder of the Father.

As I was listening to the song that day I was imagining what the little boy must have looked like. Coming to see a King. To honor him and bring the most precious gifts he could find. He looks up and says, "I'm a poor boy just like you and I don't have anything to give you that would be fit for a king. But I brought my drum.. can I play for you?" 

"I played MY BEST for him..." 

"Then he smiled at me... me and my drum."

I broke down because I pictured me. Everyday. Standing there with my drum. I should have so much more to offer him but I don't. Trying to measure up my best to the king that has given his life for me.  Yet everyday I sin. I get angry. I make bad choices. I can never measure up. But what I can do is my best. I can play my best for him EVERY.DAY. And you know what he will do? Smile. He will smile at me. Me and my sins. He will give me grace. He will forgive me. He will welcome me into his gates with thanksgiving and praise. How blessed we are to have a Father, like him. 

I wanted to blog about this because I always want to remember what this song means to me. Growing up I know that I would 'rum pum pum pum' all the way through the house without a clue to what this song would really mean to me some day. Christmas was magical as a child.. but when you can fully understand and see the real meaning unfold as you get older and older.. that's when it's really magical.